Settling in…

Assalamu alaykum (Peace be upon you),                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      When you move, its a big decision. Where you are going to live? what type of house/flat? what are the rental agreements? Etc. And these are very much adult things to do, which I sometimes wish I wasn’t an adult and could be carefree, however the reality is far from it.   Me and hubby are literally starting from the bottom. We literally had nothing, and the furniture we have is donated by family, which am ever so grateful for.But one thing I have noticed, is the finance of it all, bills, food, how much we use certain utility and really trying to earn and hit our target which is £600 per month. We refuse to live on hand outs as we believe if we are able to earn we should earn.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        For those who are struggling with finance, what me and hubby did is sit down and work out how much we spend. which is a very daunting and the most realistic thing you can do to yourself regarding about money. Made 2 lists, one is necessity and one which is luxury. Simply write down everything, even the type of food you buy. And you really have to question yourself  is Pringles important or luxury, which of course its a luxury. And this month we are doing a trial run on how much we spend in total so we get a realistic idea.                                                                                                                                                                                  Yes, there will be sacrifices and yes we have to be stubborn with ourselves, however we see this as a challenge especially on food matters and our lifestyle. I think one thing which we would struggle if I was to be honest with you is the food. Me and hubby are such big food lovers!!! However, hopefully this will give more realistic recipes for those who are living on the tighter end of the money scale.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         “There is nothing to do but hope and take each day as it comes”

Breathing at Last

Assalamu alaykum (Peace be upon you),

This is my first ever blog post,  and probably the first time am putting myself forward. Quite nervous isnt it, putting yourself out there. Life is such a strange journey, you don’t know where Allah subhana wa ta’ala will take you, from being homeless at the age of 5, always constantly being moved from one city to another till at the age of 8, came to the beautiful city of Birmingham, UK. At last some form of stability, nope. A tumultuous relationship with my mother, learning to have 2 personalities, one who I really was and one that made me fit in with the crowd. Finding Allah subhana wa ta’ala and the beautiful religion, Islam, at the age of 13, even though I was born as a Muslim. Thats the same age I found myself, my morals, and my perception of the world. Even self-confidence when I started wearing the veil at that age. Everyone found it strange, even my dear mum tried to coax me to take it off, but I was the stubborn one. I wore it for Allah subhana wa ta’ala and didn’t really care what people saw of me.


Moving fast to age of 19, got married (arranged) to the most beautiful, humble, knowledgeable believer. He still surprises me every day and how in the world did I manage to earn such a delicate soul. But the moment I got married, (some will laugh even mock again I couldn’t care less when I had the similar treatment from my family) I was afflicted with black magic and a serious case. 2 things that kept me alive and also kept my sanity. My merciful Lord and the one who has the key to my heart, my husband.


6 years of loneliness, judgements, accusations

, slandering, backbiting, some even suggested divorce. And with my husband I have finally left the place that reminds me of nightmares and the cruel eyes.

Insha’Allah hopefully, me, my husband and my little kitten, Tigger, can start a new adventure with happiness, getting close to Allah subhana wa ta’ala and maybe even this blog. Not really good at keeping things up but we will see how long I last.


This blog hopefully can let me grow and really transform myself who I really want to be. Along with my favourite hobbies cooking and art. Maybe this blog could help me think. We will just have to see then. Hopefully you can come along if you like and I would like to get to know the communities here.


Wa’alaykum asalam